Lately I’ve been avoiding talking about my beliefs because there has been so much controversy going around. And while I don’t want to get involved in the debates, I just still want to be able to share my experiences because it is a huge part of my life and means everything to me. Not only that, but I feel like other people can benefit from reading about these experiences or apply them to their own lives as well.
For those of you who are new, or those who don’t know, I am part of the LDS (Mormon) faith. It is what keeps me going every single day, keeps my family close, and my marriage in a wonderful state. Not only that, but I rely on my Heavenly Father DAILY as a mom. I feel like ever since I had a child I’ve been able to access a partnership with the Lord that I never knew existed. For example… sometimes I am at a loss at knowing what my child needs or the choices I need to make for him. I feel a closeness in knowing that I can bow my head and get that inspiration. He’s there waiting for me and never lets me down. It’s amazing and I honestly don’t think I could do this thing called “Motherhood” without Him.
Last month, the church does what’s called: General Conference. We hear from our living prophet and 12 apostles every 6 months. It is one of my very favorite times of year because you feel completely uplifted and ready to conquer anything!
This passed October Elder Jeffrey R. Holland spoke directly to mothers and those yet to be mothers. If you are reading this and haven’t heard it yet, I hope that you will take just a few minutes to listen to him speak because you will feel what I’m talking about. (Grab a tissue and click HERE)
One part, he says:
“You see, it is not only that they bear us, but they continue bearing with us. It is not only the prenatal carrying but the lifelong carrying that makes mothering such a staggering feat. Of course, there are heartbreaking exceptions, but most mothers know intuitively, instinctively that this is a sacred trust of the highest order. The weight of that realization, especially on young maternal shoulders, can be very daunting.”
He compares motherhood to the Savior and it gets pretty powerful. Towards the end he says:
“Thank you. Thank you for giving birth, for shaping souls, for forming character, and for demonstrating the pure love of Christ.” To Mother Eve, to Sarah, Rebekah, and Rachel, to Mary of Nazareth, and to a Mother in Heaven, I say, “Thank you for your crucial role in fulfilling the purposes of eternity.” To all mothers in every circumstance, including those who struggle—and all will—I say, “Be peaceful. Believe in God and yourself. You are doing better than you think you are. In fact, you are saviors on Mount Zion,13 and like the Master you follow, your love ‘never faileth.’14 ” I can pay no higher tribute to anyone.”
When he said these words I can’t help but hear it coming from our Heavenly Father, thanking us for raising his children that he loves so much. When we wrap our arms around our children, his arms are there too. When we cry with, for, or because of our children, he has tears streaming down his cheeks too. When we are up all night with a newborn, he’s awake with us.
You guys, motherhood is so stinkin’ hard. Some days ya win some, and other days you just need a long nap! But I promise that there is help on the other side for us if we just ask. We aren’t meant to do this alone.
I can’t wait for the day when I can wrap my arms around my Heavenly Father to thank him back for letting me be a mom. Because as hard as it is somedays, the joy overpowers the hard.
And that’s what I live for.