We are so excited to be announcing another baby coming in August!!
Pregnancy after a couple miscarriages is a little bit interesting. I’ve shut a lot of myself off to the world because it’s such a tender thing and every day I wake up grateful to still be pregnant. Each day is filled with anxiety and a full effort to push away fears and just allow myself to embrace each healthy day.
The first time I heard a healthy heart beat my eyes just welled up with tears. It was the first time in about 4 years that I didn’t hear a suffering heart beat, or knowing I was pregnant and hearing nothing but my own. Happy tears have been a regular thing these days and I just feel oh, so grateful.
I also write with a big lump in my throat. I have had multiple breakdowns just thinking about announcing because my heart goes out to a lot of you. This passed year has allowed me to connect with SO many of you who are suffering through infertility or loss. I’ve had so much support from those going through similar things. I almost don’t want to ever say anything because I’ve felt that “sting” before when you’re scrolling and see someone else get a blessing that you’ve longed and prayed for, for so long. I don’t want to be that sting to those of you who are suffering. I’ve come to learn the difference between empathy and sympathy and my heart truly feels for those with breaking hearts. So I hope that if you’re reading this and are in that situation, that you know how much I love and pray for you. My heart completely goes out to you and I hope that as you read along my journey that it gives you hope for your own journey and we can continue to cheer each other on.
These pictures mean everything to me because of ALL my babies. I feel so blessed that everything is healthy so far and pray with all my heart that we will have the chance to hold a healthy baby at the end of this.
Thank you all who have been so sweet. Growing a family has the hardest thing I’ve had to do physically and emotionally so far and I feel so grateful for all the prayers and love that has been sent our way! We truly feel so much gratitude and love for so many of you and will keep you posted!
PS. If you look close (on the very last picture), you can see two tiny baby hands in a praying position in the ultra sound too! I thought it was so cute. We’re all praying for each other!