This beautiful mama is Katie. For the last few weeks I’ve thought about this girl every single night with tears in my eyes as I try to go to sleep. I met her when I was a kid playing outside at my friends house. I haven’t talked to her in about 15 years but was able to reconnect with her through The Mamahood on Facebook about a month ago to see what she was up to. I loved seeing her cute smile pop up on my feed and the light she had about her. She is one of those people you can’t help but look up to completely because of the attitude she has on life.
Six months ago Katie gave birth to her second beautiful baby, Lindy Jo. The week after she was born, Katie was diagnosed with cancer. Her little babe helped her fight such a horrible battle and a few weeks ago, Katie got the news that she was finally cancer-free! Her victory felt short lived because after coming home from her last surgery and excited to get back into a normal motherhood, she found out her tiny Lindy had passed away in her sleep.
I found out this news on Easter evening after coming home from dinner at our friends house. No, I haven’t seen this girl since I was little but I just froze while sitting on my bed reading about it with hot tears coming down my face. After we had heard beautiful Easter messages from General Conference, to hear this news seemed almost cruel. How could that happen to such a sweet family? How could the Lord allow that to happen? She can’t catch one single break. I almost felt mad about it.
I’m crying as I write this because sometimes I still feel that way. Life is not fair in the least. I wish I had answers to why people have to endure such hard trials. As a mom, I can’t imagine the pains of a shattered heart to have to go through this. We have an angel baby in my family and when it happens, it affects everyone. Life freezes and feels like the minutes are so slow because they are so painful, even to watch.
As I reflect on what I had learned that Easter day, I can’t help but realize the truths I do know. Elder Jeffrey R. Holland gave a beautiful talk about how the Savior will catch us, with both hands when we feel like we are falling off a cliff. He is the reason we can have victory over every fall we have ever experienced, every sorrow we have ever known, every discouragement we have ever had, and every fear we have ever faced. I believe with all my heart that Katie will get to hold and raise her little Lindy one day. There’s nothing I can say that would help heal her heart but I pray that the Savior holds her in the darkest days and longest hours. This picture comes to my mind when I think of those hours.
It’s such a good reminder to love and hold our little ones extra close. To have a little more patience when you feel defeated. To savor every moment because every moment truly is a blessing. Katie is a perfect example of doing just that.
Lindy Jo has changed my life even though I wasn’t able to meet her. She has made me learn the reality of the atonement. She is perfect. When things like this happen it makes me want to never complain about the little bumps in life because some people are crossing mountains right now. Lindy Jo is a miracle and had a great mission on this earth to help her mama. I will forever remember her and the strength that I see in Katie.
When I asked her if I could post her story and help lead people to a fundraising page, she just said “You have my permission to post because we need all the prayers we can get at this point.” I don’t usually fundraise on my blog, but I wanted to lead you all to a page that talks more of her story and where you can help. There’s power in numbers, whether that’s to help with funds, or to help with prayers. And she is so grateful for both.
Katie, you and your sweet family have all my prayers.
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